Four Hopes Make You A Rotten Idiot !

Letting you go is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life this far. I cry all the time because of it. Not a day goes by where I don’t wish we weren’t dead to each other. I’m trying the hardest I’ve ever tried to be alright with my decision and I’veContinue reading “Four Hopes Make You A Rotten Idiot !”

the silencer in the park

There is an emptiness within an emptiness somewhere beneath my soul around in the center where my heart goes. It knows how valuable I hold on to words like commitment and loyalty. I am fractured there now in the place I know you know, that somewhere beneath my soul around in the center where myContinue reading “the silencer in the park”

Ghost Gyms and Benjamin Button

Another week goes by in my journey for self-betterment. It’s still a struggle of course. My patterns for laziness and my obsession with quick results are working hand in hand to make my life miserable. It’s about to be phase 4 here in New York. I’ve stopped paying attention to the news so I don’tContinue reading “Ghost Gyms and Benjamin Button”

recklessly waiting

waiting for things to calm down in your brain for the small chance of days similar to before. a reciprocated love war. afraid of being afraid,are we? you’ve given up trying to fix my fuck ups, have we? ran the course of all scenarios to rearrange this? Tomorrow truly may never come. these days areContinue reading “recklessly waiting”

After a Holiday In July

Happy Strange Sunday. It’s a day after July 4th the American Independence Day. Thank god it’s over. My instagram feed was filled with fireworks and parties and bbqs and a whole bunch of criticism of America, land of the free, and slavery. I’m glad a lot of people I know didn’t forget about the recentContinue reading “After a Holiday In July”