Letting you go is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life this far. I cry all the time because of it. Not a day goes by where I don’t wish we weren’t dead to each other. I’m trying the hardest I’ve ever tried to be alright with my decision and I’ve been trying even harder to erase your beautiful features from my mind. Love was not enough for us and that’s not okay but I hope the next time we see each other we’ll be able to have that very adult and mature conversation we missed out on last time or better yet avoid it all together and just stare at each other like the ending in La La Land somewhere in the city.somewhere in the cocoon of the forgotten past We would live in a hedonist mirage, maybe then in a future pretend, is our permanent happiness. I hope you’re the happiest you’ve ever been now and I hope someone is fucking you a million times better than I ever could. And I also hope you’ll never read this and know it came from me. I rather keep my sadness a mystery. It gives me strength somehow. And I know I’m not ready not see you as just another stranger . Just another lover fallen from grace. I’ll never be the same again. I’ll never fall in love again. Not like I want to like when it was with you.